Wednesday, January 08, 2014

His Last Sunrise

He waited for us. That's what I've been thinking for the last few hours.

We arrived at the house yesterday evening and spent most of the evening- and into the late hours at my grandpas side.

Holding his hand. Cherishing each squeeze. Telling him stories. Remembering.

This afternoon he passed away. At home. Surrounded by love.

I am imagining him with my Gram. Finally able to give her a kiss after all these years of missing her.

I am conflicted. Happy. And Sad. My heart is happy that he doesn't have to work so hard to take a breath. That his suffering is over. That he is reunited with my Grandma- the love they have is unlike anything I have ever seen.

But I am so sad. I miss him already. I am so grateful that we made it here in time. That he was able to hang on a few more days. He had told me he wasn't sure he could. So I am thankful. To have the opportunity to say goodbye. To hold his hand. To tell him I love him. That is the most important thing.

I took this photo this morning. Maybe I knew it would be his last.



13 comments:

2halves said...

So sorry for your loss, Amanda. I'm glad you had your chance to say your goodbyes. That's important.

You'll be in my thoughts.

Godspeed, Grandpa.

sagechronicles said...

What a beautiful eulogy to your grandpa. I'm so glad you were able to spend his last hours with him. I know it meant a lot.

Ci Da said...

It's wonderful that he was able to be at home and surrounded by family. Death is never pretty or easy, but that's about as good as it gets. I'm sorry for your loss.

onecollie said...

so very hard , so happy you were there, it will give you comfort in the days to come to know nothing was left unsaid

WigglyZack said...

So glad you made it to see him on time. He must have been waiting for you. He is at peace now. Take care at this sad time.

^..^Corgidogmama said...

What a beautiful tribute to your Grandpa. He waited for you all, then let go....what a gift for him and for you. Blessings and hugs during this time. Such a lovely, peaceful photo.
Take care.

Cornerstone said...

Lovely tribute. I am sorry- you will miss him...maybe even more as time goes on, but you will see him again too.

Tammy Taylor said...

Beautiful post. So sorry for your loss, glad you can appreciate why it was a good thing for him. so sucks for the ones left though.

Peter said...

It is sad but, as someone much closer in age to your grandfather than I am to you, let me tell you that is the way I want to go. At home surrounded by love.
Best, Peter

Diana said...

So sorry about your grandfather.

Nicki said...

I know the feeling. Thinking of you during this time.

talesofmyboys said...

I am so sorry, Amanda. That was a beautiful tribute. The love you have for one another is a beautiful gift.

Loretta Mueller said...

Thinking of you...gorgeous photo...gorgeous words.